Though he did not realize it, his faith in the right ordering of the universe, in humanity, in his own self and in God had been destroyed.
When similar doubts had assailed him in the past they'd had their origins in his own wrong doing, and at the bottom of his heart he had felt that salvation from his despair could be found within.
But this time he could not blame himself that the world had crumpled before his eyes, leaving only meaningless ruins.
It was out of his hands.
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